The weather in Rome has gotten a bit more bearable, but what’s become unbearable is the slowness or even the complete standstill of certain procedures and situations. The finish line seems close, but it’s farther away than it appears. The delays in processing inheritances are really getting to me! A deadline was agreed upon, and I repeatedly stressed that I had terms to respect… but nothing happened! And it’s not like I paid a small amount. Of course, getting angry doesn’t solve anything because it’s already done, but this whole thing has really gotten me down. It’s depressing that I try to respect others, and they often do whatever they want. It makes me wonder if I’m the one who’s wrong. Maybe I need to change my approach and be more detached and cold. I don’t know, it just wouldn’t be in my nature. Was this supposed to happen for some reason my limited mind can’t comprehend? I’ll try to look at it that way, but the disappointment remains. I used to think the rule was that the more you pay, the better the quality of service you get, but instead… I paid a lot, I felt disrespected and like I was being taken for a ride. This preamble was just to let you know what kind of mood I’m in today, unmotivated and demoralized by too many people.
Anyway, now I’ll talk about my latest song, “Every Night.” The lyrics are clearly inspired by Batman: Arkham Knight, a video game for Xbox and PlayStation. It was the first game I bought on the Xbox One, and I loved it. I thought the idea of the stun gun to take down criminals was really cool. I have to say, I’ve never read a review of that video game. I just played it, and I enjoyed the story, the characters, the mini-quests, and the Batmobile combat. For someone like me, whose goal is to relax and have fun, this game is perfect!
As always, I developed the instrumental part of the song independently of the video game. Once the instrumental was ready, I listened to it, and then I started to associate it with different video games and anime. Having played the game, the impression the various settings gave was of a city on the brink of an anarchic turning point, where the strongest made the rules and chaos reigned supreme. Society was defenseless, and the police force was unable to resist the criminal gangs. All of it made me feel a sense of dread, and a constant question came to mind: How could you build a prosperous future starting from this kind of decay? In reality, how would ordinary people live in that kind of atmosphere? They certainly wouldn’t live ordinary lives. I would imagine them as rougher and more embittered by the degrading criminal climate that surrounds them. This is certainly the negative side of the video game for me—the dread and fear that sooner or later my city will turn into an anarchic Gotham where the strongest rule and the poor are fighting for scraps. This fear is fed daily. I just have to walk through the neighborhood: people driving frantically as if they were on drugs, people who can no longer discuss things and only know how to argue, who want to fight for some unknown reason, to prove to themselves that they can command respect? That they are stronger than others? I don’t know. I only know that when I see people arguing, shouting, and screaming, I feel a sense of psychological violence. When I used to get worked up, I had a habit of punching whatever was within reach. It was more to release tension and regain clarity to find a solution, but who knows how much psychological violence I caused to the people around me. What’s done is done, but I’ve had to find other ways to manage stress.
I’ve gone off on a tangent. The beauty of interpreting Batman is precisely that it satisfies the desire to restore balance, and that constant climate of dread is essential! The instrumental gave me a sense of hope, even if it was accompanied by a veil of sadness, only to end with a temporary happy ending. When I thought of Batman, I said, “THAT’S IT!” I’m going to write a song about this! Despite always thinking it’s a risk to dedicate songs to such well-known characters, I set my fears aside and did it because I’ve always been fascinated by the vengeful character since I was a child, and that suit always looked cool!
Putting aside the fact that he’s a fictional character, when I think of Batman, I think of the message that to succeed, you definitely have to develop and refine your talents, but you also need to have the money to do so. Of course, you can consider all those rare cases of people who truly started from scratch and built an empire little by little, but considering how many people have lived on this planet, these cases are rare, and you would need to know the dynamics behind their development from scratch.
Anyway, I hope you like the song.
Next month, I’ll release one based on a manga that focuses on a theme that is frighteningly developing in every part of the world and is difficult to overcome.
Next week, I’ll tell you about another group that has influenced me a lot!
Talk to you soon.